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lurk into twisted dreams and melancholy thru the eyes of a poet, artist and soul traveller..

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..hiatus..

my past 2 weeks were extremely busy and the next week ahead is most likely as equal or even greater. im not sure when i will have free time so this is a post to let you know (and i thought i'll never say this..) i'll be on hiatus for a while.. i'll try my best to reply and visit your blogs but i apologize in advance if i wont be able to after this day.. i shall miss illo friday and all my online friends. you will be on my thoughts everyday..

now i leave you all with an old poem i wrote and a photo i took while traveling to southern manila..



Don't Close Your Eyes

as i hear the -
leaves crash to the wind
walls of echoes
paint my deserted room
the linen adrift
flying floating
as cold whispers
wrap my whole being

as i close my -
eyes in deep longing
i float more lighter
almost liquefying
swimming to that shadow
to drink the poison
of its undying spell
drowning my head in compassion

as i feel the -
whole world spinning
catch the waves tightly holding
take me to the other side
carry me.. carry me..
and let me continuously fly
as the breeze swallow me
in one big.. deep.. sigh


© 02.10.06

String: Blog Action Day 2008

Today marks the day of a special event in the history of the blogworld. The purpose of Blog Action Day is to create a discussion. Bloggers are asked to take a single day out of their schedule and focus it on an important issue. Last year's topic was The Environment. This year we focus on the mammoth issue of global Poverty.

Growing up, we were taught that we live in a third world country. And there are limits to what we can do and what we can get. I've always been a big dreamer when I was young and I always wanted to prove the grown ups wrong that we can only do as much. I also used to be a strong believer with the statement Kung hindi ka kikilos ngayon, kelan pa? ("If you won't act now, then when?")

Here are the facts:

The map of the world with classifications:


First (blue), Second (red), and the Third World (green) countries during the Cold War era. Does not necessarily represent a current world view.


But according to the list of third world countries, the Philippines is not included in terms of Political Rights and Civil Liberties, Gross National Income (GNI), Human Development, Poverty and Press Freedom.

There are 50 countries listed in the United Nations comparative analysis of poverty, 34 African countries, 10 Asian countries, 5 Pacific Island Nations and one Caribbean nation.

The 10 Asian third world countries are: Afghanistan, Bangladesh, Bhutan, Cambodia, Laos, Maldives, Myanmar, Nepal, Timor-Leste and Yemen.

And just recently have I encountered the term fourth world, and these are nations without states. But that's another story.

I guess, now that I have passed the age of idealism, agitated adolescence with radical actions, adding that i went through a personal dark age of my life.. time killed the passion. I remain in support and still believe the causes of course, but not as active as before.

Now joining the blog action day reminds me that time is really an issue with the long battle against poverty and change. One random act of kindness per person, when accumulated, creates change.

So I leave a question for everyone, if we won't act now, when will you? When?


update: now i leave you with an old collage i made back in 2005.. "hidden places"
click the image to read the poem i wrote esp for this piece



illo friday: strings

and im floating with strings of thoughts and dreams..



back in 2004.. when i first started blogging.. here's one of the thoughts i randomly scribbled down.. half awake half intoxicated.. consumed in escaping and dreaming..

"I have a bad hobby. And its driving me nuts. When I do it, I think about impossible possibilities miles away beyond my reach. This is a sin and im not ashamed to look practically pathetic and plainly stupid. Im tired of writing sexual fantasies and sending them to the person most important to me. not because I wouldn’t like any in reality, but because the more I think about it, the more I desperately want to search for him. My bad hobby brought me to the end of my rope to leap into the shallowness of my mind. And without strings attached I jumped in and dove in deeper. Without thinking. Just feeling. Forcing myself further, with no assurance of my return. This bad hobby, as may be unsounded to others, brings me to satisfaction, intellectually, spiritually; and giving consent for my material body to be degraded. Stimulate me to the heights of the farthest corner of space and time. I know of no other refuge. I know of no other salvation. It’s a one sided mirror and a tango with one foot. Less than one. Less than half. I ask of no forgiveness for being too addicted. This is my obsession and my demise. Pages of thoughts left unsaid. I blend in into the white background. Not knowing, not being known. My entity once evolved me, now I create the silence of a thousand leaves. And I shape my mind to knowing, condition my body into feeling. My bad hobby I shall never take away.
Yes, I am a sinner. I am crazy…and you are my bad hobby."


but i know now of one reality.. and it's not fatale. and that is life.. that is YOU!

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notes: ~ illo above is one of my light paintings. read my theory about lights and how to paint using light.
~ 2004 post here
~ what im currently listening to: "underneath the stars" - the cure

amazing friendships and love

here are more sugary sweetness for this week! below are two awards i received last week and i know its past my bedtime but i decided i cant let this day pass without updating this post.. not for one more day..




from the sweet and very creative yoon see
~ see the other amazing logos at her blog

and



from the amazing and adorable bella sinclair

and since this award should be passed on, i give this to seven friends who have been so sweet and amazing through these years..

1 - aravis ~ i so wanted to give her an award for "i love your art blog" last time but she was more on a novelist for me.. well that she writes about her life is simply amazing and her supportive and encouraging words to people are simply something that i love about her.

2 - angela ~ not only did art paved the way for us to cross paths, but so did youtube and myspace! (ha!) angela is very sweet and talented and she inspires me with her inner strength and beauty!

3 - floots ~ one of my oldest blog friends from way back when.. and never fail to amaze me with his inspiring poetry and photography..

4 - dennis villegas ~ its simply amazing how cyberspace can bring people together. his blog was an accidental click from one comment to another and when i realized, hey! he was my teacher in high school! and after more than a decade since we last saw each other, our blogs brought us closer than we had been then. thanks sir den, for being such an inspiration back then and now.

5 and 6 - neko and vina ~ i know this should count as one as they are synonymous to each other and although some friends may not be there always, if you think of such awards as these, special friends like them always have a place in my heart. coz not only that they share a love like no other but have something common with me and mine.

and the last and most special of all..


7 - ambres ~ of course! what more can i say? but if some people search for love, my advice is, he/she will come in the least expected but most perfect of time! i love you sweetie!

xoxo to you all!


If you would like to participate:

1.Put the logo on your blog.
2.Link to the person who gave you the award.
3.Nominate at least 7 other blogs.
4.Put links to those on your blog.
5.Leave a message on those blogs.

illo friday: sugary

and of course what other place in the world would best suit a sugary sweet memory but in lovely Paris?

and this second attempt on watercolor is for my one and only.. my ambres!





happy moogie monthsary honey!



and above is the sugar-coated watercolor painting.. filled with cotton candy chewiness..

(well, ok ok its just enhanced thru picasa.. hehe)

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sugary sweet paris
5" x 8" (orig.)
watercolor

paris.. sweet as cotton candy
5" x 8" (orig.)
watercolor, enhanced thru picasa

illo friday: packed

to avoid a jam-packed holiday vacation..



.. go in November!

i actually find this painting funny! this is my first attempt in watercolor, ha! isay knows this.. and you may find familiar landmarks here..

hehe.. although its a mix of different beaches in the Philippines.. nonetheless let me give travelers out there a tip. if you want some peace and quiet on your vacation, go here during the lean season. some locations classify them during June to December 15 and peak seasons are Dec.16 to summer. (this part of the world tho, our summer is April and May). prices are cheaper.. hotel+airfare. can you imagine i was able to see a flight to somewhere in the south (i wont tell yet) from manila, which costs only about 1,600 per person!? to convert, 34 euros or $37 USD. And this is two-way! and some may say.. "that's peanuts!" lol..

sorry moogie.. *.* i just had to tell! hehe..

so, can anyone guess where this is?

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my dream vacation
5" x 8" (orig.)
watercolor + liquid paper

i love your art blog awards

so with the season of giving just lurking around the corner.. which also reminds me of my pending post cards and atc's that i should send out through snail mail.. i really hope the recipients are not pissed off already. i want to apologize and tell you that you are always on my mind.. i just didnt realize how difficult it is to find a place to print them all..

and as for the atc's tho, only one person will get the few that i have done so far, and he is gonna get it himself! hehe.. *.*

so while i am still on the hunt for a great quality printing shop, let me give out a badge award to those bloggers i love to visit and have even built friendships with.. despite being across oceans and time.




isay
alina chau
ascenderrisesabove
bella sinclair
bluerose
ces
ginger*:)*
indigene
orangefrute88
soulbrush
studio lolo
valgal art
willie baronet
yoon see
zari

and of course, to penelope who started illustration friday and illoluv who introduced the group to me!



to grab this award badge, copy and paste the following:



there are so much more people that i want to give out this award to but im summing up the first 17. i may be adding more on this post in the coming days..

so i am encouraging everyone to pass on the badge award to your blog friends who's artworks and words of encouragement inspire you and cheer you up as well. many may have not read how my blog used to be years back, but the gloom and doom have finally ceased from lurking over my life. the blog world and illustration friday has brought so many people together and some may not know that the simple uplifting words and comments from everyone has helped me pass through those dark days.. and helped me gain confidence, which was totally null before. that chapter of my life has been written and closed now. and bright lights and colorful years are surely ahead.

thank you to all.. actually, this badge is for everyone! feel free to place it on your blog, and award your friends too, just tell me so i can add your link here as well.

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update: here is an alternative, click here to get the badge. it will open on a new window. 8)

Illo Friday: Clique



ring around the rosies
820 x 620 (orig.)
MS Paint


i remember when i used to play with the kids on our block.. how we play for hours after school, on weekends and whenever classes are suspended.. it doesn't matter if it rains or not. one of my favorite game was patintero (a traditional game where one team will all be "it" and would only step on the lines on our street while the other team should run fast and pass all the "its" and reach from one side to the other without being tagged by the "its").

we also used to play ring around the rosies, chinese garters and pretend restaurants or "house" (bahay-bahayan). in this game, we act like grown ups where our "food" are actually just leaves and twigs and stones.. somebody will play as a mom, a dad and the kids. i almost always wanted to be the mom because i used to be fond of collecting plastic utensils and plates and pack them all in a big box. thus the toys are mine so i wanted to be the one to take care of them.

then i reached 10 and being on 4th grade, classes are whole day unlike the previous years which lessens my time for play. and the boys tend to play more with sports like basketball, softball and skateboards. i knew i was a clumsy kid and i tend to fall on my knees alot so i slowly grew apart from them.

oh well those were the days.. back in the early 80's.. where playtime is totally different from now. cartoons on tv are just voltes V, daimos and smurfs. "other" shows for kids are only sesame street and batibot.

kids are more physical then and there were almost no mc donalds around. and, the simple joys of catching a beetle and grasshoppers were treasures. now if you ask an 8 year old what their treasures are.. they would say.. xbox, playstation and wii.

what do they want for chirstmas or their birthday? a cellphone with a camera and/or a laptop.

*sigh*

Moody Monday + Photo Friday

last week's photo friday's topic was "relationship"
this week's photo friday is "the extraordinary"
this moody monday's topic is "love"

so let me sum up these three themes into one..

an extraordinary love and relationship..

growing up romanticized with classic novels and literature.. it has been a dream for me to fall inlove in Paris - one of the most romantic places in the world if not the most. and i.. living on the other side of the world.. who would expect it something like this would come true?

about 3 and a half years ago, two wandering souls unexpectedly met and floated in the clouds of Paris.. despite the distance, they were inseparable since..

seven months ago i was awed by this photo and thus added it as a fave on flickr..



in a few hours the inspiration materialized thru my hands as i drew this..



weeks after that we found ourselves in the exact same spot..

unplanned.

but inevitable.



so now.. would you believe that dreams can come true?

yes they do. if you hold on to it.. and take the leap.

i am a living testimony.

actually, we are *.*

calling all paintaholics!

there is a new art challenge for all those who love to paint! Different Strokes from Different Folks

the rules are simple. one photograph will be posted every Wednesday and the goal is to paint or draw the scene, or etch it your way.. but sorry - no digital interpretations. so as for me, i should buy a new set of painting stuff then.

oh well, this is only their second week so let's give it a shot! here's this week's topic: Rehoboth Beach Landscape. here's my entry..



and of course i cant resist to make a digital version. here's the style i've been working on in the last 2 weeks..



i know! this is nothing compared to the entries there! well they are welcome to all artists who would like to join!

and so i recommend that everyone should see it! and for those who loves to paint regardless of being a pro or not, you can check out their blog and try it!

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(1) rehoboth beach landscape challenge, 2.5" x 4" (inches)
green gel pen on paper

(2) rehoboth beach digital, 970 x 720 pixels
green gel pen on paper
colors added thru picasa

illo friday: island



netherlands is made up of man-made islands ?
610 x 840 pixels
drawn on a 6 x 9 cm. paper
edited thru picasa, colors thru ms paint



He *.* mentioned to me before that there were plans in the netherlands to create a tulip-shaped island off the coast of a certain city that is visible from the moon.

now i need to verify this information coz i cant find it anywhere on the net (handicapped by my poor searching skills) plus my dsl connection was down (again!) earlier.

he also mentioned something about a cannabis-shaped island! imagine how it would look like.. a weed leaf shaped island! gee what a trademark! and i used to correct people that they should not immediately associate holland with weed. lol..

saying goodbye to outdated links

i have been trying to change my template for days and i know i have links (esp on my blogroll) which dates back to 2004, when i first started blogging. gee! its been what? 4 years already!

unfortunately not all my friends since then are still active in the cyberworld. or then again, have already changed locations..

as much as i want to keep them on my list (maybe they decide to put their sites back) i have too much going on at my sidebars that i need to lessen the activity. aside from that, i have this pop up thingy that i cant seem to remove lol. its adbrite's fault. oh well i havent opened my account there in ages! so thats another thing to add to my "to do list".

but here goes the links that i shall remove from my sidebar. the minimum time frame for me to classify them as outdated is if they havent touched their blogs/sites for 6 months or more.






::Directories::
Pinoy Top 100
onbloglist blog ranking
(additional dead directories are still being reviewed)

:: Literature ::
A Warrior's Tale
Silk
Veracity
.:A:.
.:A:.(2)
Aristocrat i
Aristocrat ii
poeticmermaid
A Neutral World?
atomic poet
bluesky tavern
c. asbury
easywriter
feminine expressions
haunted house dressing
indie ronron
lost in thought
make me hurt
melancholy of sorrow x
mystique
temppixie
maxwebber
The Grey Scribe
::Illustration Friday Folks::
Anonymous
Forever Young
Mick Mather
Paula
Rowantree
Shane Garton

:: Visuals & Art Blogs ::
Kadriorg
playing with light
Day Painter
a painting a day
a real jewel
bob doodles
brooks
chaotic paradox
glowing minds
glowsintime
jorgen's photos
photobee
shutter junkie
tricki
funny news
people you might meet online

:: Pinoys around the world ::
LadyWhiteSpirit
Chaos meets Deity
my kid cousin
Nalagblog
bagoong ave.
faux seriousness
no penny
poems of a worm
singulare
twisted illusions
Twisted Jessica

:: Music ::
posture
joyzipper
Radio indie pop
Playtunes.net
X FM
:: Shoutbox Deities ::
hdamnation
vryce
Hazbro
coast2coast
biologisvensk
captain jeff
fofusa
kirkkitsch
weinerdog
kelly
CapnPlaty
LukaQuinn
PureMood
MCfairy
SBwisdom
Ragdolls Customs
the Burning Question


i visited them one by one and placed a comment on their last post. (if i do not end up in a 404-page) some of them used to be really great blogs. strangely, a few tho ended up owned by somebody else or the owner suddenly felt its better to have a spam blog.

and i now remember how blogexplosion used to be so fun. now they have totally blown out of proportion when it comes to blog counts. i dont even go to the shotbox anymore. it's too crowded. but if you wanna drive traffic to your blog, thats one of the best ways i guess lol. anyways..

as Robert Smith sings "this wonder always leaves, the time always comes to say goodbye.. and this tide always turns.."*

i guess i wont easily get tired of blogging. let's see tho in another 4 years time?
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note: *line from "Bloodflowers" - by the Cure

illo friday: clutter


in between my cluttered life and daydreaming.. i have you *.*



in my room
980 x 760 pixels
drawn on a 6 x 9 cm. paper
edited thru picasa, colors thru ms paint



In Your Room - Devics

In my room did you care
I never knew anyone who stared at me
Quite like the way your staring at me now
And if all these empty words you speak
Could change the boy who's at your feet
I think you need not look farther than your arms
Cause I'll never change
And you'll stay the same
And I'll never change

If I could change the boy at my feet
To a man who didn't have to speak
I wouldn't have to use my arms to measure
Something about the room that day
And how I knew I'd go away
Now all I can do is stare at you
And think what I'm about to do
Cause I'll never change
And you'll stay the same
And I'll never change

I stared at the light too long
And I did everything to keep from falling
When all is said and done
Do you think it was worth it
Patterns move across the floor
And it just doesn't feel the same I'm sorry
When all is said and done
I think it was worth it
Cause I'll never change
And you'll stay the same
And I'll never change

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music note: such a lovely song sung by a duet..

memories of rotterdam maart 18, 2008


i was there with the perfect boy..
het was mooi..




The Cure
4 tour

March 18, 2008, tuesday
Ahoy, Rotterdam, The Netherlands



*just look closely and you might see Robert Smith and Simon Gallup..

for those who saw this posty earlier this week, sorry i wont be updating this post. i shall write what happened at the cure concert maybe someday soon. so let me just float with the memory for now.. hee!

illo friday: memories



view from my cube
970 x 670 pixels
drawn on a 6 x 9 cm. paper
edited thru picasa, colors thru ms pain



..the things that i see each day.. are all nothing.. my memories are the ones i am holding on to.. so wake me from this dream.. for reality is only the time i am with you.. *.*

THE PERFECT BOY - The Cure

“YOU AND ME ARE THE WORLD”
SHE SAID
“NOTHING ELSE IS REAL
THE TWO OF US IS ALL THERE IS
THE REST IS JUST A DREAM…
ALWAYS MEANT TO BE
I CAN FEEL IT
LIKE A DESTINY THING
WRITTEN IN THE STARS
INESCAPABLE FATE
Yeah IT’S OUT OF MY HANDS
FALLING INTO YOUR ARMS”

“AND I DON’T WANT TO GET INNOCENT
BUT I WOULD LOVE YOU TO TAKE MY TIME
WE'RE ON THE EDGE OF A BEAUTIFUL THING”
SHE SAID
“COME ON…
LET’S STAY HERE FOR A WHILE”

Oh GIRL!
HE IS THE ONE FOR SURE
Oh GIRL!
HE IS THE PERFECT BOY

“Yeah ME AND YOU ARE A WORLD”
HE SAID
“BUT NOT THE ONLY ONE I NEED
THE TWO OF US IS NEVER ALL THERE IS
THAT DOESN’T HAPPEN FOR REAL
IF IT WAS MEANT TO BE US
IT WAS MEANT TO BE NOW
DON’T SEE THE SENSE IN WASTING TIME
IF YOU’RE SO SURE ABOUT THIS
LAUREL KISMET HARDY THING
YOU KNOW TONIGHT YOU’RE MINE”

“AND I DON’T WANT TO GET OBVIOUS
BUT I HAVE TO BE GONE BY THREE
WERE ON THE EDGE OF A BEAUTIFUL THING”
HE SAID
“SO COME ON…
JUMP WITH ME”

Oh GIRL!
HE’S NOT THE ONE FOR SURE
Oh GIRL!
HE’S NOT SO WONDERFUL
Oh GIRL!
HE’S NOT THE ONE FOR SURE
Oh GIRL!
HE’S NOT THE PERFECT BOY AT ALL

“YOU AND ME ARE THE WORLD”
SHE SAYS
“NOTHING ELSE IS REAL
THE TWO OF US IS ALL THERE IS
THE REST IS JUST A DREAM… ”

AND HER HEART MAY BE BROKEN
A HUNDRED TIMES
BUT THE HURT WILL NEVER DESTROY
HER HOPE…

THE HAPPY EVER AFTER GIRL
ONE DAY FINDS THE PERFECT BOY


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note: gee.. robert smith couldnt be any more than perfect.. but he is! need i say more?

out now: "the perfect boy" latest album of the cure | watch the video

please petition to BPI Brits for Robert Smith to receive the Outstanding Contribution to Music Brit Award 2009 [sign the petition now]

illo friday: routine

my routine soon as i wake up..



then my routine after that..



need i say more? lol..


oh except that i was so busy with my routines i forgot to post sooner that it was my birthday and i am giving virtual ice creams for all!

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(1) routine at home, 6 x 9 cm.
crayons and red gel pen on paper
additional colors added thru picasa

(2) routine at work, 6 x 9 cm.
green gel pen on paper
colors added thru picasa

for

Birthday Icecream for All!!!

i guess im still old fashioned coz i like to be surprised on my birthday with a party, with cakes and ice cream, and balloons(?) ha! but i wouldnt have guessed that the longest birthday and most surprises i'll have is on my 28th!

it started last saturday when some of my colleagues and friends went to my house unexpectedly and drank our heart outs while watching some DVDs.

then i wished for more time to rest and poof! a long weekend came to me for the first 2 working days of the week was a holiday and we had no work. wednesday, a typhoon came and classes were suspended. and in the tropical country where i live, a rainy afternoon is the perfect climate to make the most insomniac of insomniacs sleep soundly.

imagine the buzzing of constant wind and water showering your roof silencing the noisy neighbors as its the perfect ingredient for immunity to their sound.. plus add the cold shivers that disintegrates the hot weather, blocking the sun's hot rays to pierce your window curtains. what a great gift!

thursday, a surprise song from all my colleagues rumbled the most silent corridors announcing it was my birthday and warm wishes and hugs came after that. its simply so sweet!

friday i brought some traditional filipino birthday food at work and to hear them liking what i cooked was so heart-warming and a great present all by itself.

saturday, after work (since i work at nights), my friends and i ate at my favorite mediterranean restaurant (mister kabob's) and they bought me ice cream for dessert!



after that i went to the mall with 3 of my friends and looked around for some gadgets. woah! 350 GB external hard drive for only 6,000php! (well i didnt buy it i was just stunned) lol.. i was canvassing a new set of computer speakers (preferably altec) but since i have a set of great sounding speakers from my component, a friend suggested to get a converter instead to have them hacked to the my pc. when i got home it worked! 8)

after lunch, one of my friends treated us for a movie and the only "decent" movies available are (1) star wars: the clone wars and (2) x-files: i want to believe. and since im the only geek in the group i had no choice but to go with the majority and saw x-files.

mulder was still sexy, and i was surprised to see him grow that beard! (lol) and scully.. well lets just say she lost some weight. but watching it indeed brings back memories.. although im not that satisfied with the film. (but this post is not a movie review so i leave those who havent seen it in suspense)

now its sunday and while writing this, im waiting for my pistachio cake to bake. my sister and brother and their families will be visiting and we will have lunch here at my house (it may extend to dinner too.. who knows!)

life is full of surprises! so and as for those visiting my blog.. here's a surprise too.. grab a cup and a spoon and dig in! here's a virtual ice cream for you all!!



and yeah, Happy Birthday to me! woeha..

and double scoops if you came from illustration friday

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note: this is also my entry for photofriday: old fashioned

illo friday: detach

Be content with what you have,
rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize there is nothing lacking,
the whole world belongs to you.
~Lao Tzu



detached from bloom
2.5" x 3.5"
crayons and gel pen on paper


..how i wish it were that simple. if only i can detach myself from this busy busy life. all i ever want is to live simple and simply live..
with you *.*

this ATC is for my honey.. hope you get well soon..

illo friday: sail



sailing with flower clouds
2.5" x 3.5"
crayons on paper


Legend of Woes

wandering sparks...
slow wind carried them away
thru drops and showers
the sun sadly lain

was it envy
of the lucid mirror
that it had cast away?
a drenched down
   slipping sledge;
calling unto the wind
as small waves reverberate
to traverse their malignant state

as they slide to a stagnant era
lost and forgotten
thru the journey of folded pages
covered by the crisp scent
of misplaced woes
and their gaunt desire --

     nothing but one
     nothing but sailing as one.

will they ever be together?
connected but with a string
    of unceasing dreams
woven between miles apart...

forever in the horizon
an imminent promise
a silver lining with countless knots
almost owning the starry sky
    almost reaching
      almost touching
    but remained covered
thriving with flourished clouds

and they whisper
a yearning -
carried by the floating sea
centuries apart may come
they continually ache --

    to be...

      nothing but one
      nothing but sailing as one.

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note: this is a poem i wrote back in 2005, read the funny comments here. also, both poem and art inspired by the distance of the sea and Odilon Redon..

oh, and yeah, this is my first ATC..

Photo Friday: Rough...

There is no rough road that can stop us.



Mover and Shaker

He walked a journey that flattened the lands
with a frivolous continuality
    and an upending stance --

    Let me paint you from within
    and fill the drifting shapes of empty dreams

    A reddening twilight that touched the sea
    in shades where blackbirds wake the dawn


He swept aside a thousand pathways there
'til darkness in dusk were all gone

Staring to the radiance of what's to come
He sank into the clouds, he then float

Still into the echoes he sailed the wind
Erasing all doubts and soulless cries

Madness aflamed began to fly away
He brought rest to give strength to rise.

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note: sorry if this is a repost from an old entry for a defunct b&w challenge group..
i havent written any poems in a while.. and this one that i wrote more than two years ago just brings back memories..

Moody Monday: Schadenfreude

Last march i went to The Netherlands. for those who have been reading here for a while, remember my first post about the birds in franeker? [read here..] i planned on writing about my whole trip. and this is my second entry.

thuesday, march 25, 2008, paris.

due to my short vacation, we can only go to one country outside Holland. and since it has always been a dream for me to see Paris, we booked for a trip to go there. it was not a last minute decision, but unfortunately, we ran out of seats for a train, and even for a plane.

but a few days before my big flight, luck sided with as, for we were fortunate to have booked a bus tour despite the easter holiday. yes! we forgot.. it was easter! riding a bus was his last resort, well next to a long drive, but i told him its perfectly fine. at least we had a tour guide. although on the whole trip, the tour guide was speaking only in dutch. so being the only asian in the bus, who can only speak 2 languages, poor moogie, he had to translate everything! well at least the interesting ones. but imagine me, always asking, why are you all laughing? tssk..

anyway, the longest we could stay in Paris was only 4 days and 3 nights. so we have to make the most out of it. the first day was consumed by the bus trip alone, from amsterdam to belgium to france. but i reserve another post for that day.

on the second day, the first museum we went to was, of course, the Louvre! we planned on spending the whole day there. we also knew the places we wanted to see, we wanted to explore and get lost in paris, but our list of destinations was so long we cannot squeeze it all in for only 3 days.

he has been to the Louvre before, so he knew i'd definitely like it. according to him, there were so many rooms and exhibits that it would take a week to totally go and see each one. it was that huge! soon as we got there, we were totally thrilled. but.. yes.. here it is... it was a Tuesday.. and bad luck walked with us again, soon as we got to the glass pyramid, we were stunned. it was closed! i guess our excitement made us forget to check with the museum schedules..



we were not the only ones tho, as these people were expecting to get in as well. ha! lol..

oh well, off to musee d'orsay.. now that place made me cry. ha!

(to be continued..)


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note: this is my entry for moody monday: schadenfreude - satisfaction or pleasure felt at someone else's misfortune.

illo friday: canned

and yes, of course! who else to inspire and influence a canned art, but Andy Warhol.. lol!



insomniac in a can
290 x 460
MS Paint


i never went to art school. my folks cant afford it then and always say there is no money in art. but i always loved art ever since i was a little girl. i drew on walls, notebooks, tables at school.. ha! but i never have kept a sketch book.

today i saw a post by racheal and this made me think twice of not having one. my job is not related to art in any way, but i sure need an escape sometimes and drawing and painting has always been my frustration. now should i consider myself a canned frustrated artist? lol..

illo friday: enough

one moogie wish is never enough...
"always keep that moogie smile"



and let me just get rid this song out of my head (lol)..

Never Enough - The Cure

However much I push it down
It's never enough
However much I push it around
It's never enough
However much I make it out
It's never enough
Never enough
However much I do

However big I ever feel
It's never enough
Whatever I do to make it real
It's never enough
In any way I try to speak
It's never enough
Never enough
However much I try to speak
It's never enough

However much I'm falling down
It's never enough
However much I'm falling out
It's never enough
Whatever smile I smile the most
It's never enough
Never enough
However I smile
I smile the most

So let me hold it up
Just one more go
Holding it up for just once more
One more time to fill it up
One more time to kill
But whatever I do
It's never enough
It's never enough

It's never enough


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note: i made this doodle while waiting in a hospital lobby.. listening to my ipod and coincidentally writing down the lyrics of this song. when i got home the topic for IF is enough.. what more can i ask for?

one moogie wish is never enough
108 x 248 mm (orig.) gel ink pens on paper

moody monday: sleepless

moogie month-day seventh..



"All our dreams can come true if we have the courage
to pursue them."
- Walt Disney


and yes, once again my insomnia attacks on a monday afternoon. i have work tonight so i must sleep, but i just can't.. i lay in bed and i can't clear my head of the memories of Paris..

i (we) have been daydreaming of going there for years, and finally, last march, it came true!

so for everyone out there, remember.. always dream! and hold on to those dreams, for you can't do it, unless you imagine it.

have a great week everyone..

especially to my moogie *.*

photo frames experiment

i know i have skipped illo friday last week and i think i would be skipping this week as well. let's see with the coming days..

well, the reason why is because i am busy building a blog for my officemates where we can all upload photos, thoughts and announcements in one location. i'm not even half way done but i promised them i would only do this on my free time..

i made 19 cute little photo frames that are customized for each of my colleague. but, what the heck! let me just share it to all.



pink hearts | pink make-up | red lipstick | butterfly & daisies


patrick pin | lavander stars | moogie moon | guitar on blue


green abstract | fairy & flowers | weed camo | black swirls


blue tiles | blue clouds | flying balloon | blue stars (mine)


brown girls | bunch o'smileys | double piano



my fave is the blue stars. i will be using that for my photo.

click the image and it will open in a new tab. feel free to grab anything you like. don't forget to tell me what you think! like what do i need to improve on etc.. comments and suggestions are very much welcome..

 
 
 

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